God and love

Someone said God is Love and Love is God.

Let me ponder this. So if you have Love, you have God and if you have God, you have love.

Someone also said that if you speak in tongues but don't have Love, then you're just loud noises. If you have all knowledge and have faith to move mountain but don't have Love, you are nothing.

Let me get this straight. So if you're a great speaker but no Love, you're saying nothing. If you're a great leader but no Love, you're nothing. If you know the bible inside out, can defend your faith perfectly, and even definitely prove than everybody else's religion is imperfect, but have no Love, you're nothing.

So why the heck churches are looking for great speakers, personalities, motivators, geniuses in bibles, great resumes on leadership, when love is the one that makes everything matters? Why isn't Love the main criteria the churches are looking for? THEN check out if they are great speakers, motivators, bible genius, or great leaders.

Why settle for easy fact checking when the point of looking for God is faith and not facts?

Oh yeah, feel free to substitute the word church with mosque, temple, and whatever else people gather looking for Love.

Oh well, you're reading a rant from someone who doesn't go to church regularly. And, even wonders if God is really watching. Don't listen to me. Find someone with better track record. Or knowledge. Pick your poison.

me, myself, and my hyundai

More inspiration came to me yesterday, so I continued writing my song. I even have a title

Me, myself, and my hyundai by Mario
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my car stops working
the battery's not charging
i think it's aging
should've taken biking

altenator not alternating
it even burns the battery
they said it was the setting
must replace both

we hear the words everyday
separated we fall, together we'll have a ball
if the alternator and the battery works together
i wouldn't be 442.76 dollar poorer.

as i drive out from the dealer
thinking the pda/phone that flies away
my hyundai goes faster
while my foot was on the brake

as it turned out, my tps is broken
that's throttle position sensor for you and me
who thinks car works by magic
gotta fix it it or i'll lose it

we hear the words everyday
separated we fall, together we'll have a ball
if the throttle and the sensor works together
i wouldn't be 100.14 dollar poorer.

(instruments playing)
ooohhh, oohhh, ohhh..
ahhhh.. ahhhh ahhhh..
AAAHHH, AHHH... AHHHHHH..
AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!

tale as old as time, song as old as rhyme

we hear the words everyday
separated we fall, together we'll have a ball
if the hyundai and I works together
i wouldn't be 542.90 dollar poorer.

my pda/phone flutters away... awayyy.. awaaaaaaayy........

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Good thing I don't work as a song writer.

Yet.

"She will be loved" by Maroon 5:

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Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
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No title yet, unfinished, by me:
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my car stops working
the battery's not charging
i think it's aging
should've taken biking
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Good thing I don't work as a song writer.

Yet.

the many uses of thong

Coldplay's playing their song
Yahoo's radio has something wrong
No info shows for the song..

Then my mind goes wrong
Can't find rhyme for "wrong" or "song"
'Cept maybe... thong

. . .

Sitting all alone
radio plays along
No woman of my own
to call on the phone

Then my mind goes wrong
Can't find rhyme for "along"
'Cept maybe... "a thong"

. . .


Staring at the screen
wondering where I belong
and what does life mean
going through what I've been
<sigh>
just can't seem to win

Then my mind goes wrong
Can't find rhyme for "belong"
'Cept... may-be "thong"

. . .

another tribute to Sheila

My friend blog about Sheila, our beloved music director.

http://godaholic.blogspot.com/2005/05/tribute-to-sheila.html

And I agree with him. She is an awesome music director. When I used to direct a choir, my approach was like Sheila's: simple music, scarcely use harmonies, but sing it with all your heart. With her way, we'll get more active participation from the congregation.

When the choir sings in harmony, the tendency of the congregation is to listen and enjoy the harmony. If they sing, they won't be able to hear the harmony well. They're encouraged to listen. There's nothing wrong with that. That's one approach. Bring the congregation in with full music (choir + instruments).

However, Sheila would bring the congregation in with music using the instruments and encouraged them to participate with the choir. Only sometimes add harmony. The harmony should be very subtle and help the congregation to feel that they're singing beautiful music.

Maybe I like this approach because I know a lot more what I'm trying to do.
1. Like I said earlier, get the congregation to participate actively. It's one of my main focus when I conducted a choir.
2. It's easier to focus on singing with all your heart when the choir members doesn't have to learn different parts of the harmony.
3. Easier for the choir to learn new songs. Means more dynamic group, singing up to date songs.
4. Attract more people because it's easy to join and follow. Of course, the approach can't fix members who are just not committed enough to begin with..

Of course, if you have 60-70% of your members knows music well enough to sing harmony well in 5-10 minutes, that's a different story

I've seen it works many times. Especially when we didn't have enough singers so we didn't have much choice. But, I'm not a music director anymore, so ... oh well..

Any band needs an alternative, rock, swinging, jazzy drummer?

Sheila, thank you. I'm sure a lucky church somewhere is having a great time with their music having you as their director :)

Sheila, if you read this, you know if you have a band, you already have at least two groupies.

LOL

time to nothing

just came back from San Diego, visiting my parents (great, now everyone knows more info about me, lol). I found a radio station that I really liked: 94.1 fm. It plays alternative music from 80's, 90's, and now. Anyone knows that kind of station in L.A.? I realized more now that my most favorite music is adult alternative.

Hmm.... let's go back to the drive between S.D. and L.A. Here I am, enjoying the radio and my two cokes (coca colas, not the other cokes for cops who read this blog. Beside, if it was the other coke, I won't be at home writing this blog. I would be at the hospital!). Driving 2 hours alone is always a great black hole that will pull my mind to day dreams and thoughts. One of them was how great it would be if I'm playing drum in an adult alternative band. So, here's a shout out:
Any "mostly" adult alternative band out there in need of a drummer? I say "mostly" 'cause it would be great if the band can sometimes play swing, bosannova, rock, and maybe punk. So... anybody, anyone? I'm pretty well trained: I play good, got some tricks, well groomed, well fed, don't bark at night unless there is an intruder, potty trained, enjoys catching frisbee, walk in the park, and sniffing fire hydrant.

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See how I made the twist of the phrase "well trained" from drumming to a "well trained" dog? Did you see it? Did you see it? It's funny right? Not funny? I'm a dork? Ok, fine.
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I found some anonymous comments on my last blog. It's nice to know that what I wrote is being read by someone.

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Anonymous #2: is that you AP-H? Sounds so like you. LOL. It has that tone where you just want me to get over it and move on... LOL! If not, my apologies! :)
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I think I'm beginning to be like some celebrities. "Don't invade my space!" "I need personal life!" "Hey, do you want to know my personal life? Here it is!" "Hey, why are you so concern about who I date?", "Don't watch me eating at a restaurant, but there's a nice table there where you can get good picture of my good side", etc, etc, etc...

I think the blog is getting really long. I should stop.

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Btw, this blog should be titled "disparate thoughts: jump, jump, jump around". Why? I think you know why. I just wrote wherever my thoughts go. However, if I titled it that way, you'll expect what you'll get. By title-ing (is there such a word?) it "time to nothing" you'll have no idea what to expect. (Yes, I am running for "king of dork" position tonight)

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However, now (as in by the time you're reading this) the title "time to nothing" is correct. Just look what happens to your past 5-10 minutes. LOL. (Do I win the title yet? C'mon, please?? I worked so hard at it!)
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How about if the title is "king of dork in the making" ? Would that do it? (1 more minute of your time, 3 more minutes of my sleep)
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happy ending

Thinking about stuff. thinking about thinking. thinking about thinking about thinking.

Some time ago I thought I'm weird for thinking too much. There were times I would just sit, stare, and think. But as I found out that many of friends like to do the same (unless they lie to me just to make me feel better, lol) I guess it's normal to think about thinking about thinking about thinking.

Listening to music, looking for the perfect music that expresses my feeling and my mood tonight. But as I'm listening, I realized that I'm not even sure how I feel tonight. Mixed messages, mixed feelings.

Hoobastank is playing "The Reason". I really liked that song. However, painful memories also come with that song. Again, mixed messages.

Started to think that writing blogs maybe a bad thing. People will know more about me. People will know about my faults, my problems, my mistakes. But why am I so afraid that people will know those about me? Maybe I should stop. But maybe being more open is a good thing. Again, mixed messages.
(Ironically, this blog and especially this paragraph opens a door to my soul. If you read this, that means the message in my head to post this blog wins over the other message.)

Maybe I should stop blogging personal stuff and start my own diary. And with that, I'll be a 13 year old girl.... LOL

Oh well, here's the happy ending. Just excerpt. By Avril Lavigne. Google for the whole lyric.

[chorus]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

[bridge]
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
(back to chorus)

Found

Ahh.. I found that setting where people now can give comments to my blog anonymously

Found out I like writing blogs. At least right now I'm rather addicted.

Found my locks were changed. Thought I was going to sleep outside but then I found my old keys still work. Cool.

Found my home still smells paint. Even stronger. My kitchen is still being renovated... (sigh)

Found out that my youngest sister has a blog for a while now. Hey, you should've told me earlier! :)

Found out to expect 10 years to develop real chi in tai chi chuan. Yikes! Any pill I can take to make it faster? :P

Found out (a few seconds ago) where to add my own links in this blog.

Found out I'm sleepy now.

sewing

I bought a sewing kit yesterday to sew a couple of patches for my kung-fu uniform. First thing I did after I open it was stared at it for a few minutes. I really, really have no idea what to do first. After I called my mom to ask how to sew, I
1. put the thread through the needle hole,
2. tied the thread several times to make sure it's tight,
3. prepared the patches, made sure that the patches would go at the right places,
4. thought about what I was about to do step by step for a few minutes,
5. went to my computer,
6. opened the browser,
7. then search for the nearest alteration/tailor.

I'm patient when I have to explain how to use the computer to others who are not familiar with computers. I've even gotten some complements on how nice and patient I am explaining computer stuff. However, it's hard for me to understand how can a computer can be so hard for others. It seems computers have become very intuitive to use. I've never had any point of reference to relate to the computer illiterates. Now I do.

My first blog

I would like to write about nothing. Because if nothing, then there must be something. Without nothing, there would not be a thing. Because a thing is define as a thing or no-thing.

With that paragraph, I have accomplished my goal as explained in my blog title. In other word, nothing.