self discovery

Discovering oneself and how oneself grows always excites me.

I just had a talk with my friends about what my strategy was when I was music coordinator for my church. I had a clear idea what I did and how that helped shaped the choir and the people today. I could understand how the method works in more or less enough details.

But I just realized, this was all in retrospect.

At that time, all I know was I was just trying to do this thing right. There were lots of frustration on whether I was making things right or I was making things worse. A lot of questions popped in my head constantly. Am I doing this right? Am I taking things too seriously? How much did I offend him/her? Was this something I should be doing? How many feelings had I hurt? Was my pride took over or was it something that should be done? Etc, etc, etc...


Now that I look back, things seems to be all right. It was as if it had been planned all along. And all I wanted to do was just the right thing, even though I wasn't sure what was the right thing. One thing is sure: I nagged Grace, my partner in crime, the other music coordinator, A LOT! LOL!

Amazing how our brain can examined its own and what it did. And the brain can examined itself while examining itself on what it did. And the brain examined itself examining itself while examining itself on what it did. And the brain examined itself examining itself examining itself examining itself while examining itself on what it did. And the . . .

I need sleep :)